The Sum of our Parts

This saying keeps coming to mind, as though a deeper message from spirit is trying to reach me. The longer I reflect on it, the clearer it becomes.

We are merely fragments of a larger energy, an energy that we refer to as 'God' in various forms. The idea that we are all interconnected and that we are the creators of our reality may seem foreign to us as Americans, but these concepts have been found in holy texts for thousands of years. This truth is the basis of all holy wars, of the crusades, and the hunting and murdering of all of our sacred women and men. Yet here we are, still incarnate, still aware, and still louder than ever. Why? How is it possible that through all of the pain and suffering, these messages still come through? Because the truth will set you free!

We are in the time of Revelations, and not the scary version that the canonized Bible would have you believe. We are in the time that the Gnostics spoke of and prophesied. The time of enlightenment, of peeling back layers of fear, manipulation, and control. We are in the time where every single soul on earth will be faced with the question: Do you believe?

For many in the Christian world, they speak of believing in God, in Jesus Christ, in the power of creation outside of themselves. This is the opposite of the message that the Gnostics taught. The most famous Gnostics are Jesus Christ and his wife, Mary Magdalene. I know that just referring to them as a couple sparks a violent reaction from many. Yet, the truth is still here. Even after they hunted the lineage of this couple and all those other couples born in the light of the Christos, here we still are. Shining bright and speaking the truth, there is no real control over you, only the control you allow.

So, how do we get from reacting to the state and fear-based control (3D) to acting from a space of Spiritual Sovereignty in the physical (5D)? How do we do this internally and externally? How do we remember who we truly are?

It starts with authenticity, and that is something you will hear me speak a lot about in this current energy. It is only when we can be authentic with ourselves that we can show up in an authentic space for others. It's through being very clear and honest with ourselves that we can see the bigger picture. We can see that the events that take place and cause us great pain are gifts for our soul to expand its physical consciousness. When we start breaking down the walls that fear has placed around us, that is when we are truly free. That is when the actions and words of others no longer cause pain, but open cracks where light can shine through.

So, how does this all fit in with the 'Collective' and what is happening in our country at the moment? I feel the underlying pulse in the collective, the rise of fear and anger towards one another. No matter your political affiliations, you can see the hate being thrown across party lines. You can see the worlds of famous Gnostics, the peace-bringers, being twisted and contorted to justify this hate. So, how do we, as bringers of light, move towards this and create change?

We do this through authenticity, speaking our truth, and not fearing what others may think or do. The truth is, it doesn't matter; they hold no authority over your life. That was an honor bestowed solely upon you. (Do you understand why they murdered all of us Gnostics yet?) When you do this so fearlessly, to inspire others to shine their light, eventually, the light will be so bright there will be no crevice for fear to hide in.

For me, this has been amplified in my world when it comes to my sexuality. To me, sexuality and spirituality are intertwined. Sexuality is the vessel in which the energy of creation can manifest, and I was fortunate to be raised in a home where it was spoken of as a normal part of life. When you are raised on the farm, you learn about the birds and the bees at a very early age. But growing up on a farm where sexuality was revered gave me the space to be authentic. In the animal kingdom, homosexuality is common, so to see it within my community never felt wrong or sinful. I was raised in a quiet gay community. Many of my grandparents' friends lived in lavender marriages or were Boston brides waiting for their fiancés to return from the war. This was what was portrayed to the outside world, but I was on the inside. I saw the love in their homes and hearts, and it all felt right. When I came of age, my inclination was towards women. I know I have a habit of marrying men, but it was always women toward whom I gravitated. It was a part of me I didn't shout from the mountaintops, but I also never felt like I needed to hide it until I moved to Atlanta. It was there that I saw firsthand how quickly anger turns to hate, and hate turns to murder. It was there that I learned the truth behind how fear can control and separate you from others, but most importantly, from yourself. It was there that I learned to hide who I truly was.

What that space taught me was the importance of authenticity and how powerful it can be. It created the space for me to have multiple experiences to see physically how interconnected this all is—with each other, with nature, and within ourselves. It was the place where I learned to fly. For me, the South will always hold a bittersweet spot of gratitude in my heart.

So now I am back home, fully understanding the sum of my parts and how crucial it is that I shine from all of them and how that creates a ripple through the community. This awareness helps to bring to life the space we have opened on Main Street in Middleburgh. It has created many opportunities for me to sit and minister with others. Yet I still hesitated when I was asked to step forward as a community leader in my truth.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't hesitate for a minute about putting a pride flag up in front of my boutique. It doesn't take a psychic to feel the pulse of hate towards our community strengthening. I wanted to focus on my spiritual work and not create drama. Then, through a conversation with a dear friend, I was reminded that I can't be fully present in my spiritual work if I am not being fully present with myself.

In these past few months, I have received a lot of comments and heard a lot of rumors about a rainbow flag that says, "All are welcome here." The majority of it is positive—many heartfelt tears from others who have felt scared in our community. The same community that was always so welcoming and supportive of me growing up 40 years ago. Then, there are the comments that gave me pause. One was, "These are not our values," which is beyond perplexing to me because these were the values with which I was raised here in Middleburgh. Others have told me they find my flag offensive, which I still don't understand unless you are a person who places all their worth in the opinions of others. But the one that hit home is that it is a political flag, and I should keep my politics to myself.

Well, news for you: the Pride flag isn't political to me; it is personal. To me, it represents triumph over fear. That after we have been hunted and hurt by others, love still prevails. It is personal to me because it is a sign that even in the greatest times of oppression, love conquers all. It is personal to me because it is one of the parts that make up the sum of my authentic self.

I ask all of you to do the same and rise in the light that the sum of your parts creates. To love authentically and unconditionally all of your parts so you can empower others to do the same. This is how we rise as the collective; this is how we end the control that fear has on our lives; this is how we carry the light of the Christos. We are the light bearers, and We Remember!